I have been rejected. The pain is a bitter wound.

I did many supportive things, helpful things, over the years. These things were received and accepted as long as nobody knew I was a multiple. If I had kept this information to myself, if I had never bared my soul, those things I did out of love might still count for something. But, I made the mistake of entrusting someone close to me with my secret.

I thought that if I backed off for a while and let her have her space, she would come around. Instead I have been spied on and tricked, and though I helped her raise her children when she was incapable of doing so, now I am not to be trusted. The religious spirit has risen up against me, and I have neither the words nor the heart left to fight it.

Now I am Persona non Grata, regardless of the good I have done, the sacrifices I have made, the unconditional love I have given, the unwavering support and assistance over the years I have given without any thought except to help my loved ones get closer to God. It all means nothing to those upon whom I have lavished it, because I am multiple.

This I must endure, but it is an open wound. I think God must be tired of my prayers. My heart is so heavy. I am trying so hard not to run away inside, but to bear patiently with the pain. The grief is nauseating, the sorrow haunts my dreams.

Right now the light seems so dark around me, and I feel so lonely.

But I am reaching for my Savior, the Lover of my Soul, to banish the darkness and bring me into the light once more. I’m trying to keep my eyes on Him. He was despised and rejected, and unlike me, He never sinned. I’m trying to allow Him to work His life out in me.


Losing Myself

I saw this sign/meme on a DID page on Facebook. I thought it was kind of funny, and kind of sad, and really true. It’s the main reason I don’t like to go “inside” to work without someone who can help – I’m ashamed to admit it, but sometimes I am a bit afraid of getting lost. For me, that means that maybe the main “me” that is up gets submerged while someone else comes up and takes over and does things without my knowledge or consent.

I was also thinking about Yeshua’s words to His disciples (that includes me) about losing our lives. He said:

“He who loves his life will lose it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life.  (26)  If anyone serves Me, let him follow Me; and where I am, there My servant will be also. If anyone serves Me, him My Father will honor.” John 12:25-26 NKJV

This helps me in a way that most might not think of if they didn’t have DID; I can never truly get lost “inside”, though I might get “misplaced” or waylaid or delayed, because I belong to Yeshua/Jesus! And nothing can separate me from His love! He has placed His angels inside to watch over the many personalities of “me”, over all my alters, and He is helping me learn to overcome as we go through my system together.

I know no other way to help those who have SRA/DID except to involve Yeshua/Jesus. He is the one who created us with the ability to dissociate in the first place. He created this mechanism within us to save our lives. So this is no surprise to Him! He is the one who made it so He will teach us how to navigate it, no matter the booby traps or other nasty surprises the evil ones have put in there. HE ALONE IS THE KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS! JESUS ALWAYS WINS!!

If you, too, have SRA/DID, please lead your alters to Yeshua/Jesus so He can give you HIS life! That is the best way to safeguard your life, and to ensure that eventually you will become whole. If you need help learning how to do that, please feel free to drop me an email.


Cate, et al



SRA/DID Advanced Training 1-3


Please pray against a critical spirit before you listen to this message, and ask for wisdom from Holy Spirit. You may hear things you don’t understand, or things in error (not salvation critical error), or things you disagree with. I ask you to please listen to the entire message in the spirit of love, and receive the spirit of Love that pours forth from this dear saint. That which is useful and helpful far outweighs that which is superfluous, incorrect or mistaken.

In deep love of Yeshua,


Sessions 1-3 by Amanda Buys in Cape Town, South Africa, March 2013



“Like a flitting sparrow, like a flying swallow, so a curse without cause shall not alight.” Proverbs 26:2 NKJV


WARNING – if you have DID/MPD or are a victim of SRA (Satanic Ritual Abuse) or TBMC (Trauma-based mind control), please consider asking someone to be with you and pray before reading.

(Note: If you are unfamiliar with DID/MPD or dealing with the inner landscape where our alters reside when they are not presenting, you may wish to check out my page on The Shining Man with Hurt Hands, or other resources on this site.)

It is not always a good time going into my “inside space”. In fact I sometimes have anxiety about it, and occasionally drag my heels. Lately new alters have been coming up and making themselves heard, and that usually forces me to pay attention. Sometimes my husband notices the changes and asks me who I am. Usually he gets a direct answer. Sometimes the alter is cagey; this is almost always followed by a trip inside to find out what’s going on. It is uncomfortable to have my system hijacked by an alter I have not even met. I’m blessed that my husband can handle this, and treats all of us with love and respect as we work to get things sorted out.

However, as I recently discovered, hijacking – or at least attempted hijacking – can apparently come from outside the system as well.

A couple of weeks ago, as I was drifting off to sleep at night, I heard a man talking to me from “inside”. I heard his name, but I was too tired to get up. In the morning I tried to remember who he was, but I couldn’t. I didn’t know if he was an alter or not, but I was busy packing for a trip, so I put off going “inside”.

In fact I didn’t even remember to tell my husband until after we returned from our trip. He urged me to go “inside” to find out what was up.

Even before I could settle down, I was assaulted by a raging spirit that wanted me to start tearing things up and destroying anything within reach (I didn’t act on it, but it was very disconcerting). I knew it was not inside of me, but I needed help. So I agreed as my husband prayed over me; he commanded it to go and it left. Experience tells me that when opposition like that comes against us, there is going to be victory in Yeshua/Jesus!

When I got inside, there was a man standing in front of the hospital with his hands tied behind his back. He had dark hair that had appeared to be bleached blonde on the top but the roots were showing. He looked like he was in his mid-30s, or perhaps older (it was hard to tell). He looked like he was half cartoon (in my spiritual realm, we have learned that a cartoon always signifies the presence of demons). I was happy and relieved to see that my guardians already had bound this man’s hands and had him under guard; he wasn’t going to be allowed to do anything to cause harm! In fact, he was not even allowed to speak throughout the whole ordeal.

I suggested that Water of Life would get rid of the dark ones. Immediately my guardians got him into an isolation room in the hospital, and then they started shooting him with Water of Life (if there are dark ones, they cannot survive this). As I watched them spraying him down, I saw his outer cartoon skin peel off like a body-shaped curl of wallpaper. It was then I realized this man was not an alter at all, but an intruder whom I recognized from his pictures. To be certain of his identification, I asked Yeshua/Jesus three times if it was the man I thought he was, and He said yes.

In order to understand what happened next, a little background is needed:

This same man presents himself as a Christian and as an expert on DID/MPD, but he is worse than a false brother; he actually preys on survivors of SRA and TBMC, acting as if he can help and cure them. He gains their trust and they open up to him and give him access to their systems. This gives him power over them. He uses demons to “heal” them, thereby complicating their problems and putting them further at risk. He is very dangerous to multis who have suffered from SRA or TBMC, and may even be a programmer. I am convinced that he is, at the very least, a handler. He can control a multi by accessing her programming, and this can be harmful, or even fatal.

I have personally helped other multis who have been under his “care”, and have learned that he never instructs them to test the spirits, but insists that they trust him and his “helpers”. And so these poor little ones have fallen victim to false angels, false Yeshua/Jesus, false inner landscapes and other torments that are actually keeping them in bondage! This man even charges money for this “service” and many who have sought his help have been told that it could take months or years to get them “healed”. Some of his “clients” have been physically abused and battered by demons under his direction. Some have been threatened and even attacked in the astral.

I unwittingly got on his radar because I helped some of his clients escape from false inside spaces where he had led them and was working with them. I also taught them how to defend their inside space and discern spirits. The fallout has been horrendous for me personally.

I am a victim of SRA and TBMC myself, so this means that I, too, can suffer attack. A couple of months ago, for two days he and some “friends” made a concerted attack against me in the astral. I was unable to function at all, with migraine and spine pain so severe I could not get out of bed. The pain was overwhelming to the point I could not even pray beyond crying out to Jesus to help me.

Over the course of those two days, a dear sister multi who is also a survivor of SRA and TBMC was attacked in the SAME WAY at the SAME TIME! She, too had been on this man’s radar and some of his “associates” had traveled in the astral to spy and attack her. So the two of us joined together with another strong prayer warrior, and through intense spiritual warfare, we were able to start getting some relief immediately. That dear prayer warrior has been praying for us every day since then, and all of us have begun to cut off all astral travelers who try to invade our space. The security of our spaces and our precious alters has been much better since then! Praise the Lord!

A couple of weeks ago I found a hole ripped in my inside landscape, up in the sky, and saw that a group of people were spying, but the leader was a man who had changed his physical appearance through body modification so that he looked like a devil with horns. He seemed very surprised that I could see him. I took authority and cut his silver cord. I quickly asked Yeshua/Jesus to shut that “peep hole” so the devil man and the others could no longer see me. Not only did Yeshua/Jesus close up that space, but He put a seal over it with a blazing white cross over it. Hallelujah!

Note: You can tell astral travelers by the silver cord that trails off their bodies. I now routinely cut the cords of any astral travelers who try to visit me because they are not coming on the Lord’s business, but are trying to spy or do the enemy’s work against me.

And now, back to my most recent inside space invader…

I asked Yeshua/Jesus what to do with my unwelcome visitor, and Yeshua/Jesus Himself went to the man, grabbed him by his shoulders, and tossed him up into blackness  that looked like a black hole in the sky, and I heard the words: “outer darkness where there is weeping and gnashing of teeth”.

I am purposely not going to name this man. However, I have included enough information in my description of his actions to make this a cautionary tale; be certain that you know the Lord is leading you to someone for help as a multi. And even then, do not collapse yourself into anyone! Don’t give anyone absolute power over you or your spiritual space! That is a place reserved for the Lord.

Because Yeshua/Jesus Himself evicted this man, I know he won’t be back to bother me or anyone else, apparently. God takes it very seriously when someone attacks His own little ones.

For more on battle for your inside space, I have written earlier posts that may help:

The learning curve is quite steep, and there is so much to do. But I praise the Lord that He will not allow evil to overcome us as we heal from the abuse and suffering that caused us to become multiples. I trust Him to take care of us, no matter what comes our way. Because…

Yeshua/Jesus ALWAYS wins!!

Cate, et al.

When Titans Clash…

To my dear Sisters and Brothers with DID/MPD, and survivors of SRA,

When people in ministry clash with each other, it is a dangerous time for those who are near them and trying to heal, because they may be swept away in the confusion.

Don’t choose sides without evidence, and don’t throw stones, but hide in Christ, the Rock of Ages, until the dust settles.

Pray, pray, and pray some more.

The most well-meaning, loving people can get it wrong.

Don’t blindly follow anyone! And just because you find fault with someone, it is not right to just reject anyone who loves them. This is such a device of Satan to destroy relationships, and tear down our house with our own hands.

Jesus gave us a method to reconciliation, and when people come to you to get you to choose sides, you will do them a huge favor if you point them to the scriptures!

Matthew 18:11-20 gives Jesus’ own words on the subject:

“(11) For the Son of man is come to save that which was lost.(12) How think ye? if a man have an hundred sheep, and one of them be gone astray, doth he not leave the ninety and nine, and goeth into the mountains, and seeketh that which is gone astray?(13) And if so be that he find it, verily I say unto you, he rejoiceth more of that sheep, than of the ninety and nine which went not astray.(14) Even so it is not the will of your Father which is in heaven, that one of these little ones should perish.(15) Moreover if thy brother shall trespass against thee, go and tell him his fault between thee and him alone: if he shall hear thee, thou hast gained thy brother.(16) But if he will not hear thee, then take with thee one or two more, that in the mouth of two or three witnesses every word may be established.(17) And if he shall neglect to hear them, tell it unto the church: but if he neglect to hear the church, let him be unto thee as an heathen man and a publican.(18) Verily I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever ye shall loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.(19) Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven.(20) For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.” Matthew 18:11-20

These instructions from our Master apply to all parts of the Body of Christ! Even to the Church without walls, or the internet church. The moment we decide we are above the teachings of our Master, we are already on the path away from fellowship.

For those who are trying to get healing, who are victims of SRA or other forms of trauma-based mind control, look to Jesus and try not to allow yourself to get swept away in these battles. The Lord will never leave your nor will He forsake you, and when people settle down and come to their senses, they may yet be able to be of service.

It all boils down to this: Keep your eyes on Jesus! HE is the Author and Perfector of your faith!





As you know if you’ve visited my blog, I have Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), which used to be called Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD). I spend more and more time lately working with other multiples to teach them what I have learned so they can help themselves deal with their “inside” space, or the spiritual dimension where their alters and fragments reside when they are not “up front”.

I’ve been a pastor, teaching, healing and equipping others in the Body of Christ for over 18 years. Yes, I was a multi even then, but being multiple is not a mental disease or a condition of demonic possession. I can discern spirits, travel in the spirit, do battle in the spirit, and many other things as God has gifted and/or guided me. This does not make me special, but it does mean that as a disciple of Jesus/Yeshua, I am qualified to teach. As a multi who has experience with all of these issues, I am doubly qualified. Now that I’ve got my pedigree out of the way, I will proceed.

I recently wrote a post about battle strategies to help multis (people who have multiple personalities or alters) learn how to defend and navigate their systems safely. (You can read it on my blog – here’s the address:  Without repeating a lot of what I said in that post I will state the most important point: TRY THE SPIRITS TO SEE WHETHER THEY ARE OF GOD!

Please note:

This is not an attack on any ministry or person. This is not an attempt to slam or shame anyone.

Please read the love and concern I have for my fellow multis who are being taught or led astray, and do not take a position of opposition because you might read something here with which you take exception. I am issuing a warning, and those who do not need the warning need not read further.

I am writing to clarify and teach how to recognize a false gospel, a false Jesus, and even false locations in the spiritual dimension, so that we can all recognize and take note of how to discern these things every time!

There is a great blessing in helping pull a brother or sister out of a ditch! It is not “judgmental” of us to attempt to help someone we see is heading down the wrong path. In fact if we see it happening and we do NOT sound a warning, the consequences to that one will also be our consequences – their blood will be on our hands.

If after you have read this, you agree that I have told you the truth, and you want to help warn others, please feel free to disseminate this message far and wide. May God grant you to share in the reward with those who are blessed and helped by this message. Amen.

The View From the Wall

I’ve been seeing a very disturbing thing lately, and I have prayed about how to warn my brothers and sisters about it. Because there has not been enough instruction about testing the spirits, many people are falling prey to wicked delusions that are causing danger to multis (among others).

When the system of a multi has been compromised, it doesn’t simply lead to bad days and evil dreams, it can lead to spiritual imprisonment, injury, and even death.

People are being deceived and it is putting their souls in jeopardy. Satan is not a creator, he can only imitate, but he is a deceiver. He is bringing around the oldest sin in the book, and it’s playing on the internal movie screens of many unsuspecting men and women who are doing things in the spiritual realm without first safeguarding themselves properly. People are falling for false entities, and are even being led to false “locations” or visions because they do not test the spirits to see whether they are of God!

What false entities are people encountering in the spiritual realm? There are false angels, false Jesus, and false saints. There are aliens, mermaids, unicorns, dragons, hell dogs, and all manner of other evil and unclean spirits; all of these are actually evil, but some are in disguise as special beings.

In fact, some believers have been practicing judging Fallen Angels in the “Courts of Heaven” and saying these angels are now forgiven and working for the right side. What God has judged cannot be set aside by man.

Paul’s teaching on judging angels is found here:

“(3) Know ye not that we shall judge angels? how much more things that pertain to this life?” 1 Corinthians 6:3

Rendering this as God’s angels is faulty exegesis. The “angels” (aggelos) we will be judging are more aptly rendered “messengers” or “pastors” who have taught the message of Christ to others!

Back to Fallen Angels: make no mistake, those fallen angels who left their first estate have been reserved in darkness and will be thrown into the Lake of Fire prepared for them and for the devil. Anyone who teaches something different is calling God a liar, and is subverting His Truth and His Word – either because they are in ignorance of God’s word, or because they have been seduced by the deceiver. Here is God’s Word on the matter:

“(41) Then He will also say to those on the left hand, ‘Depart from Me, you cursed, into the everlasting fire prepared for the devil and his angels: Mathew 25:41 

“(6) And the angels who did not keep their proper domain, but left their own abode, He has reserved in everlasting chains under darkness for the judgment of the great day;” Jude 1:6

“(4) For if God did not spare the angels who sinned, but cast them down to hell and delivered them into chains of darkness, to be reserved for judgment;” 2 Peter 2:4

Satan is known as the Prince of the Power of the Air, and his work is to entice us to fulfill the lust of our flesh, the desires of our flesh and our minds so that we become children of wrath! He wants to destroy our relationship, or better, prevent it so that he takes us away from God! He hates us, and he will do anything within his power to stop us from obeying God.

“(1) And you He made alive, who were dead in trespasses and sins,  (2)  in which you once walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the sons of disobedience,  (3)  among whom also we all once conducted ourselves in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, just as the others.” Ephesians 2:1-3

To Satan it was given power over all the kingdoms of the world, and so he tried to tempt Jesus with it by offering to Him what was His by right. The real temptation was that Satan was offering to get Jesus to bow down and bypass what He would do to save the world. Though Satan could not have known all of Jesus’ plan, it was enough that he knew that Jesus was God, and if he could tempt Him he would gain power over Him.

“(8) Again, the devil took Him up on an exceedingly high mountain, and showed Him all the kingdoms of the world and their glory.  (9)  And he said to Him, “All these things I will give You if You will fall down and worship me.”  (10)  Then Jesus said to him, “Away with you, Satan! For it is written, ‘YOU SHALL WORSHIP THE LORD YOUR GOD, AND HIM ONLY YOU SHALL SERVE.'” Matthew 4:8-10 

What does this have to do with us? It means that if he can, Satan will seduce us into trying to become like God without being His disciples. He offers what is our birth right, but he puts a hook in it to lead us astray.

An example of this is a vision/dream I had where Satan came to me and showed me a celestial map of the portals that led to other dimensions, so that I could travel to different dimensions. All I had to do to receive this map was to kiss him. I refused him flatly, and the map disappeared. What I learned from this dream is that I could already travel to other dimensions if I had a reason to do so, and the Spirit of God would give me safe conduct. I didn’t really need that map.

What false locations or visions are people encountering in the spiritual realm? False “inside spaces” (in the case of people with DID/MPD), false Courts of Heaven, false pools or other bodies of water to trick multis into thinking these are healing waters when instead they trap the multis in their broken condition.

False Gospel, Another Spirit, False Seers, False Prophets, False Dreams, and Another Jesus

“(3) But I fear, lest somehow, as the serpent deceived Eve by his craftiness, so your minds may be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ.  (4) For if he who comes preaches another Jesus whom we have not preached, or if you receive a different spirit which you have not received, or a different gospel which you have not accepted—you may well put up with it!” 2 Corinthians 11:3-4 

When people get away from the truth of the Word, they can easily be led astray by the serpent. When teachers teach things that are contrary to a simple Gospel (good news), they lead others astray. There is condemnation for those who teach from their own souls, or worse, from false visions given from a different spirit. Jesus had this to say:

“(22) For false christs and false prophets will rise and show signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect.  (23)  But take heed; see, I have told you all things beforehand.” Mark 13:22-23 

It was the sin of pride that caused Eve to listen to the lies of the serpent. Pride can make someone unwilling to bend or receive instruction! There was a lie mixed in with some truth, and Eve did not discern it. She was so puffed up by the serpent’s promise that she would be made wise like God that she fell for that lie. Pride can keep a person firmly set in a disastrous course!

Jesus mentioned Satan and demons and evil spirits more often than any other writer or prophet of the Old or New Testament. In His “Great Commission” He told his disciples, among other things, to cast out demons! He warned His disciples to be on guard against Satan, and warned that many of them would be hunted and afflicted by the devil on account of their faith and their ministry. It wasn’t because they didn’t believe enough, or because they harbored secret sin! Jesus gave them the Holy Spirit after He left, and said it would be enough to help the Disciples to carry out the work He gave to them and all Disciples who followed, including you and me.

“(1) Therefore if there is any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affection and mercy,  (2)  fulfill my joy by being like-minded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind.  (3)  Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself.  (4)  Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others.  (5)  Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus,  (6)  who, being in the form of God, did not consider it robbery to be equal with God,  (7)  but made Himself of no reputation, taking the form of a bondservant, and coming in the likeness of men.  (8)  And being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross.  (9)  Therefore God also has highly exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name,  (10)  that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, and of those on earth, and of those under the earth,  (11)  and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. Philippians 2:1-11 

False Shepherds and Teachers, and Students with Itching Ears

What does it mean to have itching ears? It is a longing for what is forbidden! When we long for what is forbidden we are committing idolatry – spiritual adultery – towards our Heavenly Father. The natural sequence of events after that is that those who long for what is forbidden will not be able to listen to the real, pure truth of the Gospel, so they will park themselves in the land of fables (rendered as Fiction in Strong’s). While fiction is entertaining, we all understand it is not the truth, and if we reject the truth for fiction, we are no longer followers of the Way, but have turned aside from the true Path.

“(1) Ask the LORD for rain In the time of the latter rain. The LORD will make flashing clouds; He will give them showers of rain, Grass in the field for everyone.  (2)  For the idols speak delusion; The diviners envision lies, And tell false dreams; They comfort in vain. Therefore the people wend their way like sheep; They are in trouble because there is no shepherd. Zechariah 10:1-2

Look at any teaching that titillates or thrills us, and we can see the motive behind our desire! Is it exotic? Is it possibly dangerous? Does it require us to walk beyond the boundaries God has set for His children? Follow the fruit! Anything not of Love is not of God.

“(1) I charge you therefore before God and the Lord Jesus Christ, who will judge the living and the dead at His appearing and His kingdom:  (2)  Preach the word! Be ready in season and out of season. Convince, rebuke, exhort, with all longsuffering and teaching.  (3)  For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine, but according to their own desires, because they have itching ears, they will heap up for themselves teachers;  (4)  and they will turn their ears away from the truth, and be turned aside to fables. 2 Timothy 4:1-4

False Apostles and Satan’s Angels of Light

“(13) For such are false apostles, deceitful workers, transforming themselves into apostles of Christ.  (14)  And no wonder! For Satan himself transforms himself into an angel of light.  (15) Therefore it is no great thing if his ministers also transform themselves into ministers of righteousness, whose end will be according to their works.” 2 Corinthians 11:13-15 

People can become so bewildered (this means left out in the wilderness, or lost) when you talk about false apostles and angels of light. They don’t believe in such things these days, and therefore they tend to skip over this part of the Bible. Satan’s greatest victory is won when people do not believe he exists. If he doesn’t exist, then he is not roaming about like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour.

“(8) Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:” 1Pe 5:8 

People who are not warned to be on guard are the very ones who will fall victim to irresponsible or evil teaching. The church needs to learn how to discern spirits and test every word by the Word of God. The Holy Spirit is the one who convicts and convinces a man concerning sin, righteousness and judgment. If we have the Holy Spirit, we also have access to the gifts of the Spirit – among which is the discernment of spirits. But those who do not believe in this “spiritual stuff” or who don’t care, will easily be led astray.

Test the Fruit

There is a righteous law that we must obey; if it were not so, then Jesus would not have condemned those who practice lawlessness (or violation of law). Those who disobey Jesus are disobeying the Law of Love (Love the Lord your God with all your heart and soul and strength, and love your neighbor as yourself), and God’s righteous laws (Ten Commandments, which Jesus many times told His disciples to keep).

False teachers, false apostles, and false prophets will scream “LEGALISM” and in so doing promote lawlessness that puts their followers in danger of sinning. Why do they do it? Because they want to fulfill the lusts of their own flesh, the lust of their eyes, and the boastful pride of life. If they followed the Law of Love, they would not knowingly endanger their disciples by teaching them to disobey Christ.

Jesus had the following to say to His disciples:

“(15) Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves.  (16)  You will know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes from thornbushes or figs from thistles?  (17)  Even so, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit.  (18)  A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit.  (19)  Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire.  (20)  Therefore by their fruits you will know them.  (21)  “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven.  (22)  Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’  (23)  And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’ Matthew 7:15-23 

What is the point of asking God for greater revelation when we won’t even obey the simplicity of what He has already told us? The pride of a man makes him think he is smarter, bigger, better, faster, and worthy of more knowledge than his mates. And this is the age old sin of pride. The teacher doesn’t fall in his sin alone, but drags many others behind him, and he will face a greater condemnation from Christ. This is the fate of the one who does not teach from love, but from exaltation of himself. Self-promotion, self-glorification, and the desire for wealth all propel a false teacher, preacher, apostle and prophet toward the road to condemnation.

Test the Spirits

And then test them again! Once is not enough! Every spirit must be tested every time you meet in order to be certain that an imposter is not present.

“(1) Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God; because many false prophets have gone out into the world.  (2) By this you know the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ IS come in the flesh is of God, (3) and every spirit that does not confess that Jesus Christ IS come in the flesh is not of God. And this is the spirit of the Antichrist, which you have heard was coming, and is now already in the world.” 1 John 4:1-3 

You may ask why there are so many imposters, demons and evil spirits sighted in a multiple’s spiritual dimension; alters and fragments are often created while evil spirits are invoked by the people who are torturing the multi. Therefore it is no wonder that evil spirits cling like opportunistic infections on the poor traumatized multiple.

ALL Spirits are 100% Subject to Christ! The guarantee we have is that God’s word tells us our authority in Christ to cast out demons. No question about it!

“(9) Therefore God also has highly exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name, (10) that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, and of those on earth, and of those under the earth, (11) and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.” Philippians 2:9-11 

Furthermore, Jesus disarmed Principalities and Powers! He has already given us the victory!

“(13) And you, being dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, He has made alive together with Him, having forgiven you all trespasses,  (14)  having wiped out the handwriting of requirements that was against us, which was contrary to us. And He has taken it out of the way, having nailed it to the cross.  (15) Having disarmed principalities and powers, He made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them in it.” Colossians 2:13-15 

The Devil and his angels, along with the Beast and the False Prophet, will be thrown in Lake of Fire! The devil hates God, and he hates us! Because his time is short, he is working feverishly to get as many of God’s children to fall off the track as possible. He knows his end is near, God told him a long time ago:

“(12) His eyes were like a flame of fire, and on His head were many crowns. He had a name written that no one knew except Himself.  (13)  He was clothed with a robe dipped in blood, and His name is called The Word of God.  (14)  And the armies in heaven, clothed in fine linen, white and clean, followed Him on white horses.  (15)  Now out of His mouth goes a sharp sword, that with it He should strike the nations. And He Himself will rule them with a rod of iron. He Himself treads the winepress of the fierceness and wrath of Almighty God.  (16)  And He has on His robe and on His thigh a name written: KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS.  (17)  Then I saw an angel standing in the sun; and he cried with a loud voice, saying to all the birds that fly in the midst of heaven, “Come and gather together for the supper of the great God,  (18)  that you may eat the flesh of kings, the flesh of captains, the flesh of mighty men, the flesh of horses and of those who sit on them, and the flesh of all people, free and slave, both small and great.”  (19)  And I saw the beast, the kings of the earth, and their armies, gathered together to make war against Him who sat on the horse and against His army.  (20)  Then the beast was captured, and with him the false prophet who worked signs in his presence, by which he deceived those who received the mark of the beast and those who worshiped his image. These two were cast alive into the lake of fire burning with brimstone.  (21)  And the rest were killed with the sword which proceeded from the mouth of Him who sat on the horse. And all the birds were filled with their flesh.” Revelation 19:12-21 

“(41) Then He will also say to those on the left hand, ‘Depart from Me, you cursed, into the everlasting fire prepared for the devil and his angels: Mathew 25:41 

“(10) The devil, who deceived them, was cast into the lake of fire and brimstone where the beast and the false prophet are. And they will be tormented day and night forever and ever. Revelation 20:10 

I pray that those who see truth here will be helped by the Lord to re-index your “files”. May you receive the spirit of wisdom so that you may accept His Word. May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ cover you. May you grow up into maturity in Christ, a wise son or daughter, full of love and good fruit. May you hear these words of Jesus:

“(23) ‘Well done, good and faithful servant; you have been faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.‘ Matthew 25:23 

Pastora Cate


Unsolved Mysteries 1

Category: Body memory I can’t explain.

I have said for many years that I feel like I have lived seven lifetimes in one. I feel exhausted sometimes for no discernible reason, chronic fatigue syndrome, fibromyalgia, and chronic pain syndrome aside. It’s like my brain is tired. And I really can’t point to a reason why.

My headaches have increased greatly now that I’ve opened the door for my alters to come forward. Everyone has something to say, and it is jumbled sometimes. I don’t even have a frame of reference for many of the fragments of memory I have gleaned. There are people I don’t know in those memories, and that is a frightening thing. If I didn’t have my Abba to help me, I don’t think I would have made it to this day alive, let alone sane and reasonably high-functioning, after some of the things I’ve seen in my alters’ memories.

So, last night after I went to bed I remembered something that happened when I was living in Alaska. I was in a medical program, and during one of the training sessions we had to learn and practice sterile procedure prior to placing sutures. The very first time I donned the sterile gloves without breaking the sterile field, it was automatic for me and I finished before anyone else. The physician instructor looked at me and said; “you’ve done this before.” I said: “yes, but I don’t remember when.”

I was immediately embarrassed, and covered it up by saying it must be part of my amnesia due to a traumatic brain injury (TBI) I sustained in a car accident. That’s a more socially acceptable reason than saying I was missing many years in my memory even prior to that car accident. I felt there were things at play I couldn’t understand, but I was still in denial about my DID.

The thing is, I only have two types of medical experience in my past that I can recall. The first was being a nurse assistant right out of high school, and we didn’t do anything with sterile fields back then (1973-1974). The second was all my First Responder/ Emergency Trauma Tech classes, and again, nothing about sterile field was taught. I have no recollection of learning these protocols, but it would have to be part of a program or profession that deals with more advanced medical knowledge, of that I am sure. It really bugs me that my body can have a perfect recall and duplicate something that I have no recollection learning.

I have prayed and asked the Lord Jesus to show me where I was and how I know this information. So far no answer, though it feels like I am just on the edge of discovery. It’s frustrating, this lack of control over my own memories, and the growing suspicion that I have lived a double life…